God's Provisions

"He has provisions that you know not of more than you can ask or imagine"
Mark said this on Thursday night and it was so real for me. Especially after the service that Rob delivered. Let me rewind back a little. Ok so a few months ago I was feeling very lost and far from God. It was like one day he was there and then when I looked back up he wasnt. Sometimes we drift and we dont even realize it until we are way far away. I was trying to find God again when he "showed up at my door" through a phone call. Jeanna called me and told me about a missions trip to India. And to my SUPRISE I havent stopped thinking about India and on August 13th I will be boarding a plane with nine other women to go minister to the women church planters! So I am very excited about this trip and I am totally on fire for God. I start praying all the time and persuing Him. For some reason something in the back of my mind was still not quite right. Despite all these cool things that were happening I for some reason felt like there was still a strange distance between me and God. Well this Thursday my manager gave me the day off so I could get some stuff done. I was so excited because I havent been to a Thursday serivce in forever! Some of you were there on Thursday and heard what Rob spoke about but for those who didnt Ill recap. He talked about the "Get outta Church Free Card" he said there was sometimes we all want to get out of church for one reason or another. The only place the Bible allows us to get out of church is in Matthew. "Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, 24leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift. Rob talked about how that grudge that we hold will keep us from having an authentic conversation with God. He talked about how a damaged relationship can be like a ruptured appendix ...you better to the hospital fast. I realized during that service exactly why I felt that distance and I knew what God wanted me to do. I went home that night and wrote an email that was long overdue. I never felt such a weight lifted off of me before. This grudge had been harding my heart and keeping me from what God had instore for me. I think the coolest thing about the whole situation that looking back I can see God's hand in this all along the way. Sometimes we think that God has distanced himself from us and just left us high and dry. This situation just taught me a vaulable lesson about God's activity in my life. We never know what God has instore for us. We just need to have the courage to press in and faith in Him. Because again like Beeson said "He has provisions that you know not of more than you could ask or imagine" I cant wait to see what else God has instore!